Done

showered.

watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" while my nails dry.  3|

Ready to Go For a Walk..

Just did the dishes, folded the towels..tomorrow and maybe tonight more of my laundry.

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I gotta be nice

Why do I get hurt so?

What I'm Up To

Folk CD
Christmas CD
Classical CD
Broadway CD

I'd better make this the 1.

I wanna be in Finding Nemo and might take Voice Over class..

My TV Show!

Maybe, bricks around the stage, a black floor, a black doorway with a sliding curtain, a multicolored lighted black disco ball, a black sofa we all sit on that goes around that's hard cushion, like a pianist chair, a purple carpet like under everything .

Wonder What That Was

I'm tired of people all of a sudden being smarter than me because of Johnny Depp and Tim Burton.  I bet I made you what you are today.

Obviously..

..I don't wish to ^actually do it^.  I tried to avoid the violent movies, but I decided I had to withstand it.

Problem

I told you you were bad.  So stop picking on me for what I post.

I wanted to be alone!!

Another

They won't stop doing things to stimulate me.  I don't wanna be stimulated by some fat lady sitting behind a camera.  My last update was listed as 7:11.  Shouldn't they just go fuck themselves?  Probably not, but I don't wanna fuck with them.  Not if it's shit.  They also do this for Ellen DeGeneres.  I don't want this in my relationship.  You did it cuz of my dad so go *beep* yourself and him.

Website Update - My Life

My parents or dad won't stop prancing @ the house - oh Ellen has racial hardships, I'm never acting normal @ you again

New Listening Playlist

link

I dunno

I'm just like upset @ people making me feel guilty.  I should care less @ Ellen's other fans insulting me.. It don't matter?  To them..

Edit

I numbered & ordered My Life.

:(

What's this shit for?

Website Update - My Life

They won't leave me alone.  They are fighting back if I get mad and hurt them.

Facebook

I asked for new friends but got onee I mean none lol.

Edit

I added DeGeneres on the list of people for Ellen, mayb change the tag.

Problems

Now, the Word Captchas are on.  I don;t give afcuk @ my dadI can enjoy life wo NEll Burton even if I k***ed someone.

GET HER

I was thinking @ how actually Ellen cared @ me and my mom JUST SWITCHED IT OFF YOU CAN":T CAONGRPOL MEt prn;u9[d4

OK

put the cake in and feel better, done @ :36.

Problem

I will be listening for the cake, but my mom won't stop!!

STOP TREA%TING ME LIEK SHIT

stop mimicing me you *Beep

I said STIOPs stop telling me what I ';m doj g your wawsuint time

STOP

GET THIS SHIT OUTTA MY LKIFE SHUT UOT!

Who cares?  You're the 1 who was mean to me.  You're just gonna tell me I meant that was a perosn, but I don't realy.

STOP

Ellen is participating in being mean to me.  Ya'll are worthless dum dums I know!  You're simply NOT smart!  You are not NICE!  YOu DON":t KOW WHAT YOUR DOING

STOP

I don't wanna talk shit via listening to you not listen in my room.

Website Update

My Life + Reordered

Website

STOP

PEOPLE WON'T STOP BOTHERING ME

and what was that a question?

I do..

..own an Ellen board.  Why not post @ her online?  Does she private message you??

Well

Well, this isn't adressed to anyone..just kinda there to talk @ since it's not @ me, now.  I feel threatened by Ginny to fill her needs.  I have no clue why she doesn't care @ me, doesn't want to see me.

So

I just feel they were a bit rude @ her, and I mean I feel it's suggestive like just because I know her.  I just felt .. I dunno maybe this is the end of this rant.  It's just picking on me for being lonely and me e-mailing her and her not saying to stop.  She may have in the end, but I don't remember anyone else doing that.  I just had a funny feeling.  I finally stopped after a year maybe or altogether.

Well

It's like she deserves Ellen more than me just because of her nose!

So, yea, I mean..

..like I said, I Was looking @ an old friend.  I just feel that she's gotten attention over me for some reason, like because she's older.  I mean, I got other friends.  I am curious what was special @ her.  Guess she was a little annoying and mean to me and I feel picked on for spamming her.

Dreams, hard to remember.  "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" is on.  Just woke up and am eating.  Watching it later tonight or when I wake up tomorrow.  Maybe I'll go back to bed.  I have a hurt part from my twisting exercise on my shoulder.

What I find weird is my friend used to always try to look nonchalant @ looks, like was sorta without like trying to show beauty, and suddenly like it's like against me how "she can do it" and it's all new and fresh the way she is.  I'm glad for that.  I just feel it's also like rubbing against me, like see I could do it.  Um, yea, I was your friend, I wanted to be your friend, and I wanted you to be like that if you wanted.  Why all the fingers?  I have a feeling it won't go away.  I wonder in the end I will become disinterested for something.  Well, I was supposed to, but I mean I don't see any sense in it.  My teacher Ginny has a daughter?  So what's your point?  I said something mean like this before but didn't mean it in that way..  You people should read it and tell me to like change it or something.  Also, friends tend to stick together.  I mean, I just watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" cuz I like it.  Ginny became jealous, otherwise she wouldn't have been interested.

Ugh

Ginny is suggestive I'm not accomplished.

Being Safe

When you're alone or with certain odd people, things don't seem so safe.

I know what you all did.

You don't want me to feel the way older people like to be parental to me!

Lay Away

Obviously, my dad wants you to know I don't need him when I talk to someone else.  I do enjoy him with others.  Just not all the time.  I don't know, I mean what if I liked say my husband better as far as what he's like compared to me?

She is so mistaken.

She digs into your funny feelings, wonder if that's supposed to be pseudo I'm Ellen DeGeneres.  She doesn't work.  She blabs on.

Well

The adventures with Ginny wasn't worth it.

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So

I just submitted to be interested in attending "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."  I probably can't go more than once but may if I look different.  They didn't ask for much.  I said I was 18-29 and wanted 1 ticket.

Sick

A friend is jealous of me and won't speak to me.

I'm not actually excessively mad-

Just I feel sorta unwelcome, like it's not about me but then again it is.

O Wow

How did you know @ her so much?  Saw the picture?

You're just being nasty

because I used to want an older sibling or friend.  My other friend I spammed is younger and a lot nicer..

Well

if she really seemed as though she wished d**** on you..I am not that bad.

How can we

get away from her?  Liar.  You're not really for anything with me.  Why do I even do this..all day anyway I get mad over people bothering me.  Quite a price, but some people want me working..part time though.  That's the kind of thing I'm talking @.  I needed VACATION..

O WOW

What did I do now, I probably have stepped on a bug this summer?

I spilled something on purpose as a kid?

I think more..

..I find Ellen just acts mean.  Why do I have this shit in my life!!

All she wants

is for you to hurt me.

Weird

Why is this friend like me?  It should be better for her.  Like, oh wow bad Christina.  What do you have to say @ that?

I'm sorry but

the next person?

Maybe

You should forget me since my hair is so dark.

But

why someone I know??  I don't know no faithful friend.

Wait

Other way round.

So

Why does anyone care @ this friend of mine I used to have who was mean to me?  I see all the blondes, their eyes pop out, but I mean that's like my fairer friend.

So that's your secret fantasy

me feeling for fans like I'm shit and Ellen could be your hero in some magical way like through a friend-

Problem

She was pretty harsh over nothing, probably some thing of my past..usually doesn't go that way.

Because I mean if

they were wouldn't we find them online?  Just waiting for more to show up?  I keep feeling I have to feel for invisible fans.

Problem

So, if no one is as into Ellen as me, just how into her are they?  They think she's just really famous.  Look, I am not against shit.

You might have noticed..

..I'm playing the villain and just making fun of people for getting attention.

More

Well, that's fine.  She's just ya'll's closer adult figure.  Let's just say that's what it was for the time being-

Mad

Ellen can be annoying.. tacky.. unappealing with unappealing types of gathering.. whatever

Boycott

I already thought "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" deserved more and more fun.

If it's all about saying I was mean to people I wasn't mean to, I think it's dum dum ha ha!  What's that, the shining moment now?  Just get it out, no one gives a fuck.

Upset

So, people are like doing things against me, and I end up unraveling stuff.. like something I did before.  I don't see anything I did that really lingers.  Why can't I just be me!

So, some people can't hold things in and just chuck it all for some little thing, supposedly, if you think of why they did what they did.  Thanks a lot, Tim Burton and Johnny Depp.  Wow, if that weren't there who knows how much time I'd have.

New Videos

New Videos of Me Singing

10 Songs for My 1st CD

The Ash Grove (Welsh Air)
Simple Gifts (Shaker Song)
Greensleeves
Lavender Blue
Suo Gan (Welsh)
The Water Is Wide
Scarborough Fair
All the Pretty Little Horses
O Shenandoah
Auld Lang Syne

Good News

I'm making a regular, folk CD .. or Broadway too maybe .. then Christmas!

I magine all the peo ple--

Think of all the extra energy people have from being conscious in the 1980s..

Early 1990s, very nostalgic with the new babies-toddlers.

So..

..what are we supposed to do?  Keep hush??

:( At Least

I could have stopped and thought @ what Ellen did.  It kinda makes sense.  I wouldn't do it, but I mean maybe it's something that was gonna happen.  I mean, if someone really thought @ it..  (cooking a hot dog)

Well

I should get over it.

Problem

Why should I care if it connects?  You can't all surround me and watch me 24/7 and say nothing just happened.

Problem

Why ya'll suggesting my worries which were not true before Tim Burton and Johnny Depp seem to be all that exists between us?

Problem

Thanks a lot Tim Burton and Johnny Depp.

Anyway, my family is off-limits.  They are not set up like me.  I'm not THEM!

Problem

I'm really disappointed in Ellen DeGeneres.  She was trying to take away the culture I got from my mom.  I see people sorta being jealous at me.  I feel people following me acting like they're better, smarter, and harder working people.  Something bothered her.  She doesn't know that some things don't agree.  She can't get mad even if 1 of those things happened.

I got the feeling she just steps out naked onto the stage and just barks out all her needs.  She just isn't like other people.

I don't wanna turn Filipino.  I like what I've done my whole life.

Ya'll should go bash yourselves mentally for .. acting like I did something wrong all the time.  Stop getting at me for failing in college.  You made my life an experiment.  I will not let you be mean to me.  You don't deserve squat for that.

Sorry to whomever, I feel the part @ Ellen naked might not seem appropriate to her.  Bashing yourselves, guess that's just what I thought of.  I didn't mean really.  This is just my blog.  Most of it's pretty good..  So, don't literally bash yourself up inside or just do it cuz you see it.