Showing posts with label Old Best Friends. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Old Best Friends. Show all posts

Monday, September 16, 2013

I dunno

I'm just like upset @ people making me feel guilty.  I should care less @ Ellen's other fans insulting me.. It don't matter?  To them..

I do..

..own an Ellen board.  Why not post @ her online?  Does she private message you??

Well

Well, this isn't adressed to anyone..just kinda there to talk @ since it's not @ me, now.  I feel threatened by Ginny to fill her needs.  I have no clue why she doesn't care @ me, doesn't want to see me.

So

I just feel they were a bit rude @ her, and I mean I feel it's suggestive like just because I know her.  I just felt .. I dunno maybe this is the end of this rant.  It's just picking on me for being lonely and me e-mailing her and her not saying to stop.  She may have in the end, but I don't remember anyone else doing that.  I just had a funny feeling.  I finally stopped after a year maybe or altogether.

So, yea, I mean..

..like I said, I Was looking @ an old friend.  I just feel that she's gotten attention over me for some reason, like because she's older.  I mean, I got other friends.  I am curious what was special @ her.  Guess she was a little annoying and mean to me and I feel picked on for spamming her.

Dreams, hard to remember.  "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" is on.  Just woke up and am eating.  Watching it later tonight or when I wake up tomorrow.  Maybe I'll go back to bed.  I have a hurt part from my twisting exercise on my shoulder.

What I find weird is my friend used to always try to look nonchalant @ looks, like was sorta without like trying to show beauty, and suddenly like it's like against me how "she can do it" and it's all new and fresh the way she is.  I'm glad for that.  I just feel it's also like rubbing against me, like see I could do it.  Um, yea, I was your friend, I wanted to be your friend, and I wanted you to be like that if you wanted.  Why all the fingers?  I have a feeling it won't go away.  I wonder in the end I will become disinterested for something.  Well, I was supposed to, but I mean I don't see any sense in it.  My teacher Ginny has a daughter?  So what's your point?  I said something mean like this before but didn't mean it in that way..  You people should read it and tell me to like change it or something.  Also, friends tend to stick together.  I mean, I just watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" cuz I like it.  Ginny became jealous, otherwise she wouldn't have been interested.